I know that many, many women walk through what I am walking through right now, and they don't share it. I know it's not something people like to share. I'm not sure why. I'm a sharer. I'm sharing. So here it is.
It's been a rough couple of weeks for The Koper Family. On December 26th, we found out that we were expecting baby #4. But within a few days, I knew something wasn't right. After one middle-of-the-night visit to the emergency room and 2 follow up appointments, we have come to realize that this pregnancy is not normal and we will not be meeting this baby here on earth. God's peace and comfort have covered us. We are sad but we know that nothing is out of God's control. Thanks to everyone who prayed for us before our first followup. I know a few of you were freaking. right. out after I asked for prayer on Facebook. But I'm fine and healthy and even getting through this loss pretty well. I'm still in a lot of physical pain some days, and I'll be glad when that is over and I can really start to heal and move on. You know you've been resting too long when you're sick of Pinterest.
Going through this has shown me a lot of things:
My husband is the most supportive, loving, kind and encouraging person I could every ask for. When I woke him out of a dead sleep at 2:30am and said I needed to go the ER, he didn't ask, "Are you sure?" or "Why?" He just jumped up, got the kids ready and got us out the door within 15 minutes. We had lived here less than 48 hours and didn't even know where the nearest ER was, but he and his iPhone got us there in record time. He has been nothing but caring and sweet through these last weeks and I am so thankful for him.
My parents are the most prayerful, faithful people I know. I know that I was covered in prayer before, during and after each of my follow up appointments, as well as during every day of the last few weeks. I am so thankful for them and for their constant prayer over me and my family, not only during this time, but always.
The children God has given me are so amazing. They sat in the ER for 4 hours in the middle of the night as well behaved as ever. Since we have lived here less than 2 weeks and have no babysitters, they have sat through 2 follow up appointments getting constant compliments on their excellent behavior. They are so sweet and thoughtful and funny and beautiful and I am so thankful for each of them.
My favorite verses have helped me though many tough times, and this is no exception. I love Paul's words: "Not only so, but we also rejoice in our sufferings, because we know that suffering produces perseverance; perseverance, character; and character, hope. And hope does not disappoint us, because God has poured out his love into our hearts by the Holy Spirit, whom he has given us." Romans 5:3-5
I'm sorry that I haven't even posted Christmas pictures, let alone pictures from our move. But I will, soon. I'm sure in another week or two I'll be back to normal and be ready to share our recent adventures with the world! So be ready!